The Power of Diksha

I'm no longer amazed that human beings can transmit energy of various kinds over the phone. The first time I experienced this was when I was attuned by my teacher in Ireland to Reiki. There were three attunements, one for each level to "Master." Each time I felt very obvious physical effects, which I found out later were consistent with symptoms of kundalini arousal. (I may talk about those symptoms in greater detail in a later entry.) Now I've come to the point where I can channel Reiki, and the feeling of energy flowing through my hands has been getting stronger the more I use it.

But I never expected to find enlightenment transmitted over the phone.

No, I'm not enlightened, but that is the one goal of the mystic's life. I've been searching for it all my life, or at least starting immediately after reading Gopi Krishna's Kundalini when I was about 18 years old. Only in retrospect do I know realize that the periods of intense bliss that I would experience from time to time due to my yoga practice was from my own kundalini arousal. At the time, as happy as I was during these times (usually lasting about 3 days), I still couldn't bring myself to believe that such magic existed in the universe. Doubt has always been my own personal killjoy.

Now, I'm 44 years old, and I've made quite a bit of headway in my search. I'm not enlightened, as I mentioned, and I've had a great deal of realizations over the last few months that give me deeper understanding of what it entails, but in practical experience, I just hadn't been getting anywhere. I think FAR TOO MUCH.

But now I believe I've found it. Thanks to Sri Amma Bhagavan and the Oneness University in India, people are being enlightened by their touch, and have been trained to offer diksha (pronounced DEEKsha) to others. Also known as shaktipat, deeksha appears to be a bioelectrical energy that is passed from an enlightened Guru to a disciple, which serves the purpose of rewiring the human brain so that it can sleep easily into it's natural state -- enlightenment.

I've had about five dikshas so far, all over the phone. The first one caused a deep sense of bliss that lasted four days, during which time the constant chatter of my mind and it's resultant stress were completely silent. It was so strong that others around me noticed my joy, and I began to wonder if I had been indeed enlightened. Unfortunately, the experience began to slowly fade after those four wonderful days as I watched my mind slowly come "back" from whatever silent retreat it had been in. From this view, I saw how all my problems are caused by buying in to the mind's incessant critical chatter, which was everything from planning my activities for the day, wondering if I look "okay" to other people, whether what I said to my husband a minute ago was stupid, etc. For the first time, I realized it was actually possible, and actually quite preferable, to live a life where the mind is not in control.

The mind is the cause of ALL suffering. Period.

I'm looking forward to the upcoming May 16 diksha. Although I haven't had that same peak experience since that first diksha, I've had several realizations that have helped me to understand much more of, well, everything. My mind is expanding, and I'm in complete and total debt to Sri Amma Bhagavan. I've never felt this close to the end of my search, and it's only going to get better from here.